Blessed Sleep
With
eyelids squeezed tight
you
count down from ten
then
twenty, fifty, a hundred
to
no avail.
Silence
begs for shouting
to
distract the thoughts
that
won’t allow, grant, permit
blessed
sleep.
Sirens
peel strips of flesh
from
your insomniac mind,
daring
fingers and lips
to
remain still.
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While
the previous week’s poem Acceptance
turned surprisingly pleasant, this poem labeled Blessed Sleep takes its own unexpected, darker twist. I’m not sure
where I dredged up the idea of insomnia other than from the contrary title. I
don’t recall ever having extreme bouts of insomnia, certainly nothing
comparable to the misery expressed in the heart of this poem.
Having
addressed the topic, however, I now have empathy for those who do suffer from
such a malady. Not only does sleeplessness rob one of a full night’s Blessed Sleep. It also reaches out to
undermine the following day’s pleasures that a person normally expects from
life.
This
poem also describes an accelerating reaction, as a taunting voice issues a dare
to find peace outside the pain of noisy chaos. This suggests that sleeplessness
leads to growing agitation. Worries mount, seeping into the conscious mind.
This likely assures that any hope of sleep is futile.
Is
there a solution that doesn’t require the use of unnatural substances? Not only
for sleepless nights, but for endless days of questioning and searching for
answers. An overactive imagination in the daylight hours, one that conjures up
the possibility of trouble at every turn, is as afflicted by insomnia as the
sleepless person of the night: both suffer from the restlessness of constant brain
activity, whether negative or positive.
Maybe
the solution lies in the previous poem, Acceptance.
Or it may lie ahead, in an as-yet unexamined word or phrase.
Do
you have the answer?
When I've experienced sleeplessness, it had to do with racing thoughts or I was nervous or upset about something. Also, I grew up with an insomniac. My mom who was/ is bi-polar.
ReplyDeleteShelly, I cannot imagine the pain of insomnia. Waking up tired makes the day difficult even before it has begun. Functioning with little or no sleep seems impossible. Yet many people suffering with insomnia manage successful lives. I tip my hat to them, to you.
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